Monday, May 24, 2010

I know it isn't much

This weekend was a lesson in love languages and balance.

We all have a way that we tell people that we love them. Some of us use words, some of us give gifts, or buy dinner, some of us do things that we know the other person doesn't want to do so they don't have to, some of us require cuddle time. Remarkably, my family is about diverse in love languages as possible. That leads to a lot of hurt feelings and a lot of resentment.

This weekend though we somehow found a way to balance all of that and get a long. We got things done and that was a good feeling.

Song of the day: This Christmas I'm Yours : This Is Energy.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

You used to laugh under the covers... maybe not so often now...

Stay or leave... that's the question. It feels like that's the question of my life most of the time. End a relationship, just walk away or just give space. There's a never ending attempt to balance forgiveness with sticking in a bad relationship.

Song of the day: Stay or Leave by Dave Matthews.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Game Plans and baby steps.

There's a problem with game plans... the things in life that require good quality well thought out game plans are the ones that require a lot of waiting.

The game plan for paying off debt, for finishing school, for moving, for buying a car or even for getting a better job all require a well planned and well executed game plan. I can write out a game plan. I can even sit down and figure out what's realistic and what's going to require me to win the lottery to make it happen. I write it all out, and then I take the first step and then I get to wait. Wait for the next pay check, for August, for another month or two for leases to be open, wait for a down payment to build up... and wait for everything else to wrap up before I go chase the job.  

Waiting sucks. Waiting makes other people think that you aren't trying, and just to be clear... I'm trying but it's a matter of baby steps.  Painfully slow and tiny baby steps. Sigh.

Songs that make the daily battle a little bit easier:
Sherwood : Best In Me 
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